Yes, the clock is ticking so fast that before I know it, I have turned a year older.

When I was younger, I wished I could grow mature earlier so that I could experience things in life then that I was deemed underage to experiment. I wished I could start earning money to start my family and be capable of achieving all things that I wanted.

Now the sight of the boys growing up so quickly is a constant reminder to me that as they grow bigger, I am also growing older. I have almost everything that I yearn for but there are still things in life that money cannot buy and no hard work can help to achieve (just my personal sentiments)……

Year 2008, like the last few years, wasn’t a fantastic year for me. As I make my entry into another age of wisdom and maturity in year 2009, there are many things that I have to learn to LET GO:

• · All the traumatic memories that a few have given to me (beyond what words can describe)

· All the past bad experiences (car accident, health incidents etc.)

· Enemies that I might have made along the way

· Bad choices that I have made (thanks to a dear friend who has been enlightening me that life is the outcome of how we choose to paint it and blame nobody else cos we always have a choice in choosing how we want to live our own life and not how others want us to lead it)

· Many many many…..

I should sound happy in this first 2^nd hour of my birthday and so let me recap what fantastic achievements I have gotten myself in the past year. Well, a job promotion, a better mother (haha..self-grading …judging by the smiles on kids’ faces and kids’ own achievements), a car owner finally, leave my dinosaur age and join the blogging club, getting stronger and gaining victory against the many traumatic experiences in life (yo, is this considered as an achievement in life?) and finally being commonly labeled by friends as a superwoman/supermum/superwife/super career woman).

Alright, so what are my aspirations in life as I turn one year older. “Happy” is the main target I wish for and I mean really Happy.

I guess I have been making so many people around me happy without bothering much about myself. Learning not to be taken for granted, setting the correct boundaries, finally bidding goodbye to all the problems/obstacles that have been plaguing me for years and making the correct choices are hopefully not gonna be hard to achieve….