Life during my childhood days was a peaceful and extremely quiet one. Simply because I was the only child and I have never experienced the moments of siblings’ rivalry, fights or affection.  Loneliness was the description of my feelings then.  I have always envied my cousins who come from a family of more than ten children.   I remembered myself having the wildest fantasy of my parents picking up an abandoned child so that I could finally have a sibling and company.

Though my social circle widened as I entered my teens, loneliness continued to overwhelm me as there will always be a sense of emptiness at home – I have no sister or brother. Hence, it wasn’t that difficult for me to get emotionally attached to Ed after I knew him in my teenage days. This is the story of an only child ……..

On the side of Ed, he has a brother. However, the age difference of 13 years appears to create an obstacle to sibling bonding.  When Ed entered the university, my bro-in-law was only in his lower primary education. When Ed joined the working world, my bro-in-law has not completed his primary education. Eventually when we got married, my bro-in-law has yet to complete his secondary education. With great age disparity, I guess their feelings are not much different from that of an only child.

Hence, when Ed and I started our family, we were determined to have more than one child, with a comfortable age difference of 4 – 6 years old, so that they would never feel as lonely and distant.  This is how we ended up with two boys who are turning 6 and 10 soon.

Since the two boys came into our life, it has been a few years since I last enjoy a moment of quietness in my life.  Although our days now are filled with common sights of arguments and fights between the brothers (sometimes it could really drive us parents crazy and helpless!), it is also filled with sounds of laughter and moments of joy seeing the brothers cuddled  each other. I am happy that I have made this choice and Thank God for giving me two wonderful and lovely boys as my pregnancy processes were definitely not smooth ones.  In fact, I would love to have more children if not because I am running out of stamina <lol>.

“FOR WITH THEM, I NO LONGER FEEL LONELY AND EMPTY”.

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